Update #11

Well good news and bad news.  Good news is that I stuck with my promise to myself.  I haven't had junk food or fast food this week.  I had some Teddy Grahams, but they aren't horrible.  I mean it's not like getting Oreos or other cookies.  And I told myself I wasn't going to reward myself with junk food, so I'm regretting that, haha.  But really, things are a little better now, I'm not craving fast food like I was at the beginning of the week.

Bad news is that a few updates ago, I thought I was around 239, turns out I was wrong.  I was probably around 250.  Where my scale was broken, only part of the middle number was showing, so I'd see 2#9 or 2#0.  I thought the # was a 3 when the last number was 9 and 4 when it was 0.  I might not be explaining well enough, but the final point is I'm around 245 now.  So it does look like I at least lost about 5lbs. 

Update #10

I guess after today, it'll have been 6 days, leaving just Friday for my week-long promise.  So yes, I'm still doing good, no junk food or fast food.  It's been rough, and the thing is, that's only the beginning.  It feels like I've put all this work in and the most I'll see out of it is losing a few pounds, if that.  Hopefully, I will have lost some weight. 

For me, it can be easy to think of bad days as days where it will be the easiest to just give into a craving.  But on really good days, it can be just as easy to give into a craving.  On good days, obviously I'm feeling good and like I'm invincible and that just makes it all the easier to say, hey, a candy bar can't hurt, pizza(one of my biggest weaknesses) for dinner can't hurt.  But it does hurt losing weight.  And I know that, but no matter how many times I say that to myself, it's hard to quiet that voice saying just eat whatever you want.

Update #9

Third day and I really want a candy bar or something right now.  I figure that if maybe I can write about it, I'll avoid it.  I don't want to give in or make excuses.  I might have to pick up a few groceries tonight, so I want to say it here that I'm not going to get anything extra that I don't need.  But one good thing to look at, after tomorrow I'll be half way to a week.

Update #8

It's only been two days and this sucks.  I'll be honest, this isn't some cake walk(maybe not the best choice of words).  Part of it is that even though I'm not eating junk food, it's too soon to see any results.  And I think that might be one of the hardest things.  Once you can start seeing some results from your hard work things get a little easier, but at the beginning, you just have to tough it out.  We can see all the before/after stories and they make it look so quick and easy.  And I guess that might be part of why I'm writing this, because in between the before and after there is a lot of anger, frustration, and just negativity.  But to get where I want to be, I have to fight through all of that, and as I stated before, it sucks.

Update #7

Well, I haven't done too well this week.  I had pizza or fast food 3 nights and I had ice cream treats at the beginning of the week.  Some inspiration this is, ha.  It's not like anyone's reading this anyway.  I want to make a promise to myself.  I'm not going to eat any junk food this week.  And once I complete that, I'm not going to reward myself by being able to eat junk food for a day.  Because that turns from one day into several days.  Let's do this.

Update #6

Things are going ok.  I know I mentioned that we had snacks at work and I was happy that I didn't have any, but I had a few on Thursday and Friday.  Still, that's better than I usually do.  And at least, the snacks are pretty much gone now.  I haven't been eating completely right, but I am doing better than I was.  I've been good about making my dinner all week at home.  So that's a lot better than getting something like a large pizza or some huge fast food meal.  I weighed myself and I'm somewhere around 239 and 243, so I guess I have lost some weight.  The reason I have a range is because on the scale that doesn't display correctly, it reads what looks like 249, but the 4 is messed up.  I did a little testing by holding weights, and it seems like the 4 should be a 3.  On my other scaled, it read 243, but I think that scale may not be exact.

Doing yoga is still going well, haven't missed a day.  I figure I'll include a few pictures of my flexibility, which I want to improve.  The reason I'm so sweaty in these pics is because it's right after I finished a workout.

Update #5

So I've started again.  I've been good since Monday.  I'm still pretty down in the dumps over eating too much on the holiday weekend.  And my scale is kinda broke(I kicked after being mad with myself), it's digital and some of the lights don't come on anymore. But even though things are kinda crappy, I'm moving forward.  Hopefully I'll have a success to report soon.  Well, I guess I have a minor one.  They made a snack drop off at work and I've been able to resist getting anything.