Update #14

Ever since I left work today, I have just been pissed off.  Bad traffic, email is fucking up, and trying to fix it is slowing my computer down, making it hard to work on this.  I honestly won't be surprised if this closes on me.  I have Monday Night Raw on and it is just fucking stupid.  It always is, I'm not even sure why I watch it anymore.  I'm not good enough to have a girlfriend.  I'm still eating like shit and caring less and less about it.  I'm always going to be a fat sack of shit and women will always think I'm too fucking ugly to date.  So why even try improving?  I'll never get what I want.